I plan to complete a minimum of 50 pages before I complete the book though, and bring it to print. The royalties will be a form of "indirect restitution," and the only form of restitution I'll need (assuming that forgiveness and reconciliation never comes.)
I hope that this book will serve to help anyone who is in a similar social & spiritual situation that I have been in, and learn what to do and what not to do. I hope that this book will serve as a cautionary tale to many readers anywhere so that they do not end up in any similar situation.
If I get forgiveness and reconciliation from the main character though, I will cancel all plans of publication and take all parts of this story down from public view.
For protection and privacy reasons, I have aliased all names and places of everyone and every place involved, but anyone involved in the story or who knows anyone in the story will know who they are just from the contexts.
I have been warned by my family to leave that church. Since forgiveness and reconciliation appears to be distant, seldom-used concepts there, (at least from that one member, and a couple others there,) I'm starting to believe that there may be a friendlier church out there after all.
As an endnote, I wish for the main character to observe these Bible verses:
"For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life."